.Friday, March 26, 2010 ' 5:49 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
was wrking part time at sentosa for a conference on my off day...$$ issue again.was quite slack..din regret working lol.plus,is work w sui~
we even had ben n jerry ice cream!yummmyy!i love the strawberry cheesecake flavor~~
sui..in her very nice n not ex top!
awhile ago,i teared..becox the red lump hurts again..make me feel ultra pain...do i really nit to go for the very ex jab,once a mth? it will incur my monthly cost..sigh.$$ alrdy not enuff...
n awhile ago as well, i was checking out msn message history w edward..its a long story why but nbm,i won! he gona treat me eat lol.
so..after that..i check out the msn message history w him as well...n omfg...i cried.....unknwingly.
i scroll down the history...
BAKA means:
Bai chi di yi ming
Ai da ren di yi ming
Kai kou ma ren di yi ming
Ai ku di yi ming
i know...that i wldnt receive any calls/sms from u anymore..u wldnt sms me random things...'baka!guess wad???' or 'baka!gosh i just woke up!' or 'baka!wana go....'..
sometimes..when the same old thing happens..or i nit a listening ear..i really really...wanted to call/sms u...but...its different now.
whenever i receive a sms...i was hoping its u..but i will nr be u...
u vanished..same world..diff dimension.
i miss u calling me baka...
.Thursday, March 18, 2010 ' 5:39 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
such a cute giraffe right?i love giraffes.
have i really gotten over it?
i find myself reading her blog.
seems like u brought her to keppal bay.
i rem we both explored keppal bay tgt..neither of us been thr b4..n i rem i said its such a nice place,next time u can bring ur gf here...and now..indeed u brought her thr...i wonder,when u brought her thr,did u think of the many times that we been thr....
u nr brought me to seletar dam..u brought her thr..and it was some other guy who brought me thr...another nice place to emo.
sometimes,i feel that i wasted too much time on ppl who arent worth my time,who doesnt appreciate me and cherish me...and while wasting time on these ppl,i neglected those who really treasure me.
aw still contacts me..and he say he will still cont to wait for me..i told him abt how i feel towards him n yet he is so...i duno how to say.i cld nr thank him enough...i nr met someone who gave me so much...to think back,when i was back in china to work for an event last year.he came to find me every night...n buy me all my fav food...not to mention coming to the hotel was very far n expensive taxi fare....
.Tuesday, March 16, 2010 ' 7:40 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
been seeing this bunch of ppl 6 days a week,8 hrs a day,but i arent sick of them.i am really really thankful to be in this training grp 3.they made me look forward to training everyday (: (except that now its lecture n kinda..making me slp since my attention span is very short)
yet another of our outing..to cel kes birthday.he's 27 but young at heart and SJB.diy his present,this time was again smth diff but using polaroid again.and the first time i anyhow do :X as in i din spend much time decorating the thing.only spend..5 mins?LOL.anyway its kinda last min so cant do until very super perfect.
i do so many diy things but everytime each and every one is diff,n i am running out of ideas soon.
i think i shld try to get pic of all the things i do,can becm my collection and then maybe i cld turn it into $$ making biz!LOL.ppl come to me,to make a memorable gift for their love ones.IDEA!
my hair,short once again.but i like it.
i feel like gg keppal bay again.but i dun think anyone wld bring me thr...
was at seletar dam the other night.emo.emo.
oh yes,i dun mind gg ice skating again!
.Wednesday, March 10, 2010 ' 6:39 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
i went for a haircut.
very short now.
wads the point of keeping it long..when its time consuming to tie it up everyday, wasting more shampoo...n its not even smooth n silky...
i wish i have natural soft silky hair..i longed for long wavy curls...
i can only envy...bleah.
Better never to have met u in my dreams,than to wake up and reach for hands that are not there.
.Tuesday, March 9, 2010 ' 12:11 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
i know that 7 march was the date i given myself,to stop thinking abt u,to throw u out of my mind and heart.
now,9 march, and i think i failed to do so.becox thrs still too much of ur shadow ard.
everytime i pass by ave 2, will remind me of the mrnings, whr i will see u in my haven wake up mode..n hop onto ur bike for a nice windy chilly ride to wrk.
everytime i take my house lift, will remind me of the few times i was tipsy/upset n u took the lift up w me..
everytime i use my laptop, will remind me of the times u were at my place, wanted to use laptop but somehow,everytime,my laptop failed to work.only when u want to use,it mulfunction lol.
everytime at chomp2, will remind me of the many times u came all the way from the west just to eat dinner.
everytime inside movie theatre, when i laugh way too hard, will remind me of u,how u will grab hold of me trying to ask me to calm down..
everytime when i happen to be at places i been w u,i will be emo for a while.thrs too many places we been to...
everything that linked to u,will remind me of u..bleah.
and too many places we said we wld go tgt..n nr will now.
and i have yet to taste the super nice maggie mee w cheese,u said u will cook for me next time.
falling for u was unexpected...its hard to let go but i will eventually,i mean i have to,right?
we know pretty much abt each other,we share our joy and sorrows,we tok abt random things etcetc,n now, i know i cldnt do that again since u got a gf..plus now,we are strangers and i seriously duno why.
命运让我遇见了你，却没将此刻的短暂，变成永久。
sometimes i still wonder, u really treat me as a very gd fren during those days?u really nr ever had a slightest liking for me? but i guess, i wldnt noe the answers anymre.
i cant blame u, cox u nr said u like me etc...but can i blame u for misleading me???since those things u did are really misleading?
i wldnt let myself be so...naive again...now i learnt that, guys who treat u ultra nice doesnt mean they like u...they just treat u like gd buddy.
but i really...arghh! he knows clearly how i dun believe guys...how i lost faith in all guys..that gd guys dun exists..and wun be so close w just ANY guys..n i was so close to him etc..
and he proved to me that i am right again, all guys are just the same...i thot he was diff...but he turned out the same...maybe he did not mean to..bt still..
worse still, even if u got her as ur gf, why do u nit to treat me like u duno me,i am a stranger????
even when we walk pass each other, u din even said hi to come n disturb me...like how we use to!the way u look at me, is like so cold...or somewhat,it give me the feeling that u felt...guilty??or rather u duno how to face me??
.Friday, March 5, 2010 ' 2:10 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
wow.was reading my blog and realized i haven been blogging for 3 mths!
decided to keep it going...
been rather busy with training (: training had been awesomely fun, with interesting people in the grp.we had bbq/bowling the other day,as farewell for the trainers.its sad that they were allocated to other grps,cox they had been very gd trainers..
the usual clique i hang out with during training.too bad jon was busy doing duno what while we were taking pics.
guys in the training grp,plus ronan,our only guy trainer.
all the females in the training grp, including 2 trainers~
one of the few FULL class pic.tho we love to leave out the dino.muahahha.
3 wks.360deg changes.10 millions qns on my mind.365 things to do tgt,vanished.
